Madison's mini ballet performance!

Today Madison's dance class did a mini performance for the parents! Here it is!

Shocked

I have recently found a message board that is for people with lyme or with loved ones who have lyme. I have found it extremely helpful and have actually found people in my area who go to the doctor I will go see in January. Tonight I was reading on the boards and one of the threads had me shocked and made me realize just how blessed I am. On this thread were women who hurt because their husbands weren't supportive of their illnesses. Their husbands had said things such as "I wish you would just die already and get this over with" and "You should get a terminal illness because then you would really have something to -itch about."

I can't imagine a husband saying this to his wife. Chris has been nothing but supportive during my illness and I am thankful for him. He has dealt with so much by having to take over my responsibilities and keeping up with his. He makes sure I get my medicine when I am supposed to, he helps with my heating pads, drives me when I am unable to drive, takes care of dinner, the laundry, his work, the kids, and the list just goes on and on. He has seen me on my worst days where I am unable to shower but not once has he gotten upset with me. He continues to love me and take great care of me. He makes sure that I know he still cares about me and that my illness doesn't change his feelings. God blessed me with such a loving, caring, sweet, Godly man. My heart breaks for these women out there who are really sick and in need of support especially from the most important person to them, their husbands. I pray that their husbands will understand what their wives are going through and provide them with the love and support that they need in their most desperate of times.

God, I thank you for the amazing man you have placed in my life. Chris, thank you for all you do and loving me at my worst! You truly are a Godly loving man! I love you

Family Photos & Other Ramblings

Here is our most recent family photo! I am surprised that we got one with all of the kids actually looking at the camera! Our photographer did an awesome job!


Sorry I haven't been blogging but I have not had a good week. My illness has really got me down this week and I haven't been sleeping. Thankfully we had a dear friend help us out with the kids a couple times and other friends brought us dinner and chatted with us one night. It has just been an awful week and I am tired of the pain. We did call and get into a lyme doctor and I go to see him January 7th, I can't believe I am actually looking forward to seeing a doctor!

My friend Janel's wedding in in 2 weeks and I am soo excited! I am in the middle of planning her bachelorette party and can't wait to see her walk down the aisle! The day after her wedding we will be arriving at Walt Disney World and I am very excited about that. I hope that I am feeling ok while we are there. I will be using my wheelchair and cane and resting more than I usually do while there but I think it will still be fun!

The girls are all doing well!

Kaetlyn will be turning 3 in a couple of weeks and I can't believe that. She had her evaluation for school and it went well! She will definitely be starting in January and I think she will get a lot out of it!



Alyson is our little walker now and I can't believe how fast she gets around. She loves to dance and is just so darn cute! She is now a toddler and no longer a baby and sometimes that is hard to handle but it is so amazing watching her grow and learn new things!



Emma is doing awesome in school, awanas, and dance! It is hard for me to believe she is going to be 6 in February. She is such a big helper and amazing big sister. She really does take good care of others!


Madison is also doing well and has been taking good care of me this week. She napped with me several days I was stuck in bed and it was just a special time to spend with her. She is doing well in school, cheerleading, and dance.



Chris has been doing an amazing job of working, taking care of the girls and me! This week he had to have a root canal and crown put on and was dealing with an infection where the root canal was done but he never complained about having to help me. God truly blessed me with a wonderful husband and I pray that I get answers from the new doctor so I can go back to taking care of him!

Well, I guess that is all for now!

Lyme

So after talking with Lisa, my dear friend whose son has Lyme disease, and with people on different message boards who all have Lyme including a doctor I believe there is a 99.9% chance that what I have is Lyme disease. It fits all of my symptoms and explains everything. Sadly not everyone in the medical community agrees on what Lyme disease can do to you so no many doctors are knowledgeable in it and it can take many doctors and years to get a diagnosis. The tests for Lyme are not accurate and yield a lot of false positive or false negatives. Finding a doctor who is lyme literate is hard and there are only two in our area and due to the fight in the medical community insurance does not cover these doctors. I will be making an appointment to get into the one close to us to see what we can do. So I think I still have a long journey in front of me but at least I feel that I am now going in the right direction.

I really want to thank my friend Lisa for being supportive and not pushing this diagnosis on me months ago when she knew all along this is what it was, she didn't want to be a pushy person who tells you what to do. I do wish I would have listened to her better and not put so much trust in my earlier doctors.

There is a film that was made about Lyme disease. I have not seen it yet, Lisa is going to lend it to me but here is a trailer for it.

Thankful Thursday

Please join Sonya at Truth 4 the Journey in participating in Thankful Thursday, especially on this Thankful Thursday!

1. I am thankful for my amazing family! I am blessed with a wonderful loving family.

2. I am thankful for my wonderful friends.

3. I am thankful for our beautiful blue house

4. I am thankful for the yummy food we have

5. I am thankful to have a loving and forgiving God!

What are you thankful for?

My Health

It has been a while since I have given an update on my health situation. I am having more good days but still have a lot of pain in my legs and the feeling of ice going through my feet. I got the results back of my latest MRI and it was normal. I still have more blood work and an evoked potential test to be done in the next two weeks. I am starting to believe that I have Lyme's disease, I have thought that this is what I had before but the doctors all blew it off. Soon after getting back from a trip to Arkansas in July of 2008 I started having pregnancy problems at the same time a friend of ours little boy, who also went on the trip, started having trouble. He was diagnosed with Lyme disease a few months later. I have told this to all of the doctors I have seen and they all said that they don't believe that I had it, especially since I never had a rash. One of the doctors did do a blood test to make me be quiet but it was an inaccurate one and none of the doctors cared that this test didn't work for our friend's son and that there was a special test we needed to order, they also didn't care that he didn't have the red bulls-eye rash either. I just find it hard to believe that we would both develop similar issues at the same time, I mean what are the odds? As I sit here over a year later I feel like my life has come to a halt. I hate being in pain and I hate that our lives have changed so drastically. I don't understand why the doctors wont listen to what I have to say and why have I let them just talk me out of what I believe? I am hoping to find someone who knows someone with knowledge of the disease so I can hopefully get some answers. I am really ready to move on and I pray that I can sometime soon.

Anyways....

Happy Thanksgiving everyone! I hope you all have a wonderful and blessed day!

New Digi Challenge?

I am in need of picking back up on one of my hobbies. I would love to have a digital scrapbook challenge. Each week we would have a them and we would just have to do 1 layout for that theme. We could either do a layout every week or every other week for those with a busy schedule. Let me know if you are interested as I would really like to get this going! Here are some pages I worked on tonight!

Rockstar kit from Shabby Miss Jenn

Bubble Gum and Licorice kit by Summer Driggs